I'm almost turning 26 and the mental pressure is immeasurable. No! Not career! I give a horse's arse about it these days, now that I don't have one; it is about finding a girl, something which will change the meaning of my existence, an existence without any freedom, I hope not. A great man in me had thought - Once you are married, you're married for life. That's that. When my parents ask me to get married, rather ask me if they can start looking for a girl, which they already have and the asking is all but a formality, that is the though) that comes to my mind. And when they take my suggestion on what kind of a girl I'd prefer, which they hardly do and cruel enough it only is a suggestion they ask for, I say - someone who lives and lets me live. I remember this one conversation that I had with my father the other day about an ideal girl to get married to - ideal for me, according to me. Not having words on how to explain, I had given him an example - if I was to go out on a sudden vacation with friends, for say three days, without ever planning for it, and after I inform her once that I am going, I am not to get a call or message from her until I call her myself or until I am back. Of course I'd call her once a day, I hope, given I forget who in the world would be expecting to hear from me when I am with friends. Then and there, my father had given away any last hopes he had of finding one, per my specification that is.
Not just that, there are other things. They say - to be on a moral high ground, you cannot think about another woman when you're married for once. I agree, what I do not agree is getting married in the first place. Also, I do not understand the plausibility of not thinking about another one. But give it a thought? Just one woman to admire all your life? What wrongs did God perform to not be amused by the beauty he created!? Only the other day, I saw a girl, walking briskly towards the place I was standing, her densely-populated-wavelike-curly-at-the-end-hair, left open, running just below the shoulder, jumping up and down in joy of being there on such a beauty in the first place. My gaze was transfixed, never blinking, in awe, thinking this was the exact girl I was dreaming of all this while. I couldn't help but think if I had ever felt like that before? Stupid question. I did, just a couple of months back, when I looked at some other girl in a similar situation!
Irrelevant information: turned out she was too dumb.
Irrelevant information again: the latest one apparently isn't.
Relevant information: highly likely I feel the same about someone else in a couple of months' time.
And anyone before that? Yes, now stop asking such stupid questions for I keep on answering and my girlfriend gives me an all abusive call even before she finishes reading this. No, the second girlfriend wouldn't, she has a good sense of humor. Anyway, the whole point is, you just cannot be ready to be with one woman who's overly possessive, or should I say just about possessive? The least she can give is the liberty to be yourself, a little space (actually, I won't mind a lot of it), liberty to look around a little bit? No? Cheap? Okay. But I don't look around with that intention, it just happens. I get hit by a thunderbolt, like in the Godfather, now and then and I suppose it is perfectly fine. No? Okay.
To think of it, there are too many negatives, but are there any positives? Ask those overly-possessive-looking-for-that-ideal-guy girls and they say - you get someone to love for life. Seriously now? I can't love myself for long enough. But I do hope I find someone who can understand the little perks I enjoy, respect them and let me enjoy being myself forever. Well, looking at other women is not all I want. Stop deducing me to be a pervert and please concentrate on other important perks like going out with friends and all (of course without her tagged along everywhere)! Too much to ask for? Well, from the study, rather self-study, of reverse psychology (or common sense), if someone gives you what you always wanted, that someone gets back what they want. And they sure won't want more than what they deserve. Didn't understand it yet? Never mind.
A great just-another-guy-in-his-second-half-of-the-twenties in me had once said "So give me the liberty and I shall give you what thou deserve. Else, I am just about doing good enjoying the perks of being single..."
P.S: Even after all the lame discussions at home, I am thankful for my family is too kind in giving me the liberty I need.
Not just that, there are other things. They say - to be on a moral high ground, you cannot think about another woman when you're married for once. I agree, what I do not agree is getting married in the first place. Also, I do not understand the plausibility of not thinking about another one. But give it a thought? Just one woman to admire all your life? What wrongs did God perform to not be amused by the beauty he created!? Only the other day, I saw a girl, walking briskly towards the place I was standing, her densely-populated-wavelike-curly-at-the-end-hair, left open, running just below the shoulder, jumping up and down in joy of being there on such a beauty in the first place. My gaze was transfixed, never blinking, in awe, thinking this was the exact girl I was dreaming of all this while. I couldn't help but think if I had ever felt like that before? Stupid question. I did, just a couple of months back, when I looked at some other girl in a similar situation!
Irrelevant information: turned out she was too dumb.
Irrelevant information again: the latest one apparently isn't.
Relevant information: highly likely I feel the same about someone else in a couple of months' time.
And anyone before that? Yes, now stop asking such stupid questions for I keep on answering and my girlfriend gives me an all abusive call even before she finishes reading this. No, the second girlfriend wouldn't, she has a good sense of humor. Anyway, the whole point is, you just cannot be ready to be with one woman who's overly possessive, or should I say just about possessive? The least she can give is the liberty to be yourself, a little space (actually, I won't mind a lot of it), liberty to look around a little bit? No? Cheap? Okay. But I don't look around with that intention, it just happens. I get hit by a thunderbolt, like in the Godfather, now and then and I suppose it is perfectly fine. No? Okay.
To think of it, there are too many negatives, but are there any positives? Ask those overly-possessive-looking-for-that-ideal-guy girls and they say - you get someone to love for life. Seriously now? I can't love myself for long enough. But I do hope I find someone who can understand the little perks I enjoy, respect them and let me enjoy being myself forever. Well, looking at other women is not all I want. Stop deducing me to be a pervert and please concentrate on other important perks like going out with friends and all (of course without her tagged along everywhere)! Too much to ask for? Well, from the study, rather self-study, of reverse psychology (or common sense), if someone gives you what you always wanted, that someone gets back what they want. And they sure won't want more than what they deserve. Didn't understand it yet? Never mind.
A great just-another-guy-in-his-second-half-of-the-twenties in me had once said "So give me the liberty and I shall give you what thou deserve. Else, I am just about doing good enjoying the perks of being single..."
P.S: Even after all the lame discussions at home, I am thankful for my family is too kind in giving me the liberty I need.
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